An Apologize

An apologize I wrote for myself in 2017, when I forgot how to treat myself with kindness. A little reminder, we will never be perfect and that’s okay. No one is perfect in this whole world, flaws are okay. One thing we can do is learn to embrace it. I’m sorry I did this to…

The Worst Day

5 years ago, the day he’s taken away. An hour before they told me you’re getting worse, they told me to pray for your health. I started to freaking out but still trying to cheer up because I thought it’s impossible for you to leave so soon. You were still young, a 16 years old…

Human Are Complex

I remember feeling blue and want to push away all the people around me. Then I realize why some relationship didn’t work. This isn’t just about romantic relationship, but also the relationship we have with our family or friends. Human are complex. We don’t just get sad, or happy. We don’t just feel a thing…

A Dream For The Future

This post is inspired by my highschool mates whom I finally met after quite a while!  Talking to them feels like seeing something far far away. They talk with a clear vision about their future. They hold on to their dream tightly. My dream, on a large scale, is just to be happy. Simple yet…

A Crowded Relationship

Love is not enough Our love only is not enough to keep us together Because what they say does matter Because, They know about us more than we do They know the secrets that kept between us They know how to calm me down at night They know how to face your “don’t disturb” mode…

Reasons To Stay Alive

Have you ever wonder the purpose of your existence in this world?  Why you should be alive? To be honest, right now my situation is kind of messed up. My life is not exactly happened the way I want to, and things I thought would never happen to me suddenly happening. Yes, I know this…

Favorite Cooking Channel!

Hello, lilcat! You all must be have some hobbies, right? I do have some too, and one of them are cooking! *yeaay* To me, cooking is very effective in relieving stress, just like writing. But, of course, writing is much much cheaper hobby than cooking, sometimes when I see some good ingredients in the store,…

5 Years From Now

“It’s important to have some laugh, but you gotta suffer a little too because otherwise you miss the whole point to life.” -Woody Allen Yesterday some friend asked me, what will I do five years from now? And I spontaneously replayed it with the common answer, “I will graduate as soon as possible, start a…

Miss Beach

I miss my hometown How the sea wind messes our hair Sun burns our skin And sand dirt our clothes Coconut become our daily drink Happiness surrounding us And laugh is all we’ve got Ah, That night! That night when you stole a kiss or two -Av    

Being so far away is sucks!

Ah, I miss you. Like soooo much. Or maybe too much. What are you doing right now? I’m curious. Never been so curious like this before. How’d you feel now? Do you like it there? Have you pick a fight with the others? I guess you have, haha. What did they do to you then?…

Favorite Poem #1

I randomly found it on internet so I don’t really know who made it. I read it a thousand time because, I don’t know, it just so beautiful. Definitely one of my favorite poem ever. If you have a partner may be this is the one you should give for him/her! (Credit to the anonymous…

A man, I hope

I hope I’d meet someone Whose life isn’t white A man, Who knows struggle As well as I do A man, Who have tasted this world’s madness So I won’t be dampened And he could understand me Whose heart is blackened By sorrows Then we will keep ourself Tightened between eachother        …